Left behind.

Back home things are happening. The ones you love adapt to life without you. They do things you don't understand not because they don't make sense but because you are out of the picture. and just as they have to be accepting, so do you. Thats so easy to say, I can say it a million times over and still it'll be 10 times harder to do because there IS no logic behind it. Theres no way to understand everything that goes on back home.

You see their lives unfolding, plans coming to a head and starting to work themselves out. The worst part of those plans is that you aren't in them. Theres no room for the little Mina. You see all thats going on and you fight to stay in her world but you cant, theres no way. Its hard to sit back and accept that and so you get in a whole bunch of small but fierce fights where neither of you know what you want besides to be happy.

Theres no way for me to sit back and watch my world go off without me. its like ripping your chest apart with your bare hands. All you really want to do is scream. there is no release. Missions do well to distract you, give you something more pressing to think about and a small way of preserving what you need, cause without you then theres no way to be in her world. So you think about your task at hand but when you get back its there waiting for you.

If shes anyones shes mine, but she walks alone in a world Im not in. I miss that world. I miss her.